Love You Forever

Last night, I had a dream. It was a dream. I didn't pretend to believe it was real. I could feel it, and for the first time, I cried.

It was eleven o'clock at night and I had just finished preparing for the following morning. It felt good to be organized, for once. My eyes were heavy as I climbed into bed. Slowly, I fell into a deep sleep.

But while I slept, I learned so much.

In my dream, I was once again an innocent baby. I was in a dark room, scared of what lurked behind the shadowy walls. I cried, but no one answered. I cried again and still no answer. Just when baby Isaiah lost hope, I was in the hands of a woman.

She sang the most beautiful song that I ever heard. 

I'll love you forever.

I'll like you for always.

As long as I'm living

My baby you'll be."

Baby Isaiah instantly stopped crying. I knew that song. I looked into the eyes of the woman. I recognized her: my mom! The one who adopted me, was holding me now.

I woke up with tears on my face. I felt... happy. My mom, my real mom, the one who told me jokes, sang to me and read me books, held me. Then I remembered the song in my dream. It's from the book that my mom read to me when I was little. The book is called Love You Forever. In the book, a baby is born. His mom held him and sang the song from my dream. The boy grows up, and yet the mother still goes into his room every night and sings him the song.

Eventually the boy is a man, and has a child. He sings the song that his mother sang to him.

My mom tries so hard to make me happy. She regrets never being able to rock me. Today, I guess, I wished I had that chance. I wish now, that I had made the most of every day great for her.

I found that book this morning. When I finished reading it, I flipped to the first page. My mom inscribed it to me eight years ago. This is what it said:

My sweet Isaiah-
 Sometimes there doesn't need to be any occasion to give a gift when you're giving part of your heart. That's what this book is- a special message to you from me. Just remember that there isn't a single moment of a single day that I don't love you forever. Because I do. I love you forever.
                                                                                                                        Love Mommy.
                                                                                                                        May 14, 2005

One day, when I have my first child, I will remember everything my mom did for me. I love you mom, I truly do.

And I'll never forget that you'll love me forever and you'll like me for always. And as long as you're living, I'll always be your baby.

For once, I can't help but feel happy.

                                                                         

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